Some nights the
air turns brutal
And all you can
see are planes
Butter-winged in
between the sheathes of wind
Aiming for the
callouses of the earth
And you never
really thought you’d be the kind
To make a death
threat, but right now you’re dying
To kill
something or other as though life
Were just the
little light atop a birthday candle
Or some medal you
can take away.
Now, here, as
silent as the swords you’ve sewn into your page,
The bitterness
comes seeping through like cold molasses,
The bitterness
and silence and the stillness of your endless want.
You drown it in
defeat. You cry. You whimper.
Your words are
pointless and your wings have fled.
You write down
lines on lines and almost drunk on feeling you make the call
To instead lie
low
For as long as
you need before the sun starts to glimmer
And then what,
will you wake in a puddle of bitterness again
Looking out over
grey sky through translucent windows into snippets of other people’s lives,
Going about
cutting crusts of bagel in their kitchens,
Flipping through
TV guides or having a smoke on the balcony
Or whatever else
they do
Or when the fire
alarm rings how everyone, yourself included,
Instead of
evacuating the building or going back to sleep stands outside
On the balcony
Looks blankly at
the firefighters and the shiny trucks
Listens vaguely
for the distorted buzz of the personnel’s walkies
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